This is a series of reflections on my own life that I hope will encourage you to think about yours. Many of us have things in our lives or activities that are energizing for us. Sports, hobbies, maybe places or memories that are really special to us that came from our connections to those around us as we grew up. Mine hangs on wonderful cars from my childhood that were connected to significant memories.
A story of my dad’s life and the way he responded to my promiscuous lifestyle with grace.
The story of an unsung hero in my life. A call to recognize and affirm those who have positively impacted our lives.
God is with us when we don’t see Him. From my birth God has been faithful to me. This is part of my God story that I want to share with you.
Many vacation memories as a child included camping trips with my dad and our friends. Many interesting cars and camping vessels included in my history of traveling the roads with dad.
Life brings with it joy and pain. In the end God weaves it all together and with Him, it can be all good.
God called Adam to fill the earth and subdue it. What does that mean for us today? You may find some wonderful encouragement as you read further.
After many years of a painful relationship, God used a simple Ketchup Packet to heal my heart.
Cars began to symbolize memories of great elation, as well as memories of the painful history that was manifesting itself in my life. My teen years revealed the dysfunction I had lived in most of my life.
As adulthood becomes a reality, so does the pain of relationship development. Read the story of how I covered the pain I began to feel as I discovered this new reality.
As I got married for the first time, there were some significant things that undermined the marriage. Not feeling equipped to deal with them, the marriage began to suffer. Finding distractions wasn’t hard due to busyness, family responsibilities, and working a lot of hours.
The Beginning of the End of the Marriage – The Discovery of Homosexuality and An Adulterous Affair
I am Gay, and I want a Divorce. My mind began to split and everything that I held dear no longer was important. I am going to go my way and discover my “real self.”
Hello, God! I’m In Trouble!
I was anxious to get into my new life and experience a new gay relationship. That’s the way I saw it, the old is gone, the new has come and John Smid is going to redesign his life.
Valentines Week, 1984. When roses were being handed out, I was calling it quits with a gay partner. As I continued to fail at maintaining healthy relationships, God showed up over and over to reveal His love to me.
This car symbolized a new beginning in life. Starting over with new friends, new activities, and certainly new priorities. This little white gem carried me from one life into the other with confidence. A brand new way of living gave me a fresh start and new friends. through involvement in a singles ministry and the development of a clown ministry, I discovered talents and strengths I never knew I had.
Much like my 1982 Sentra, Little did I know that this car would also take into a life transition that was both miraculous, and shocking to many people around me.
A well received gift to my fiance’ after a challenging road to our engagement.
An amazing woman, a worshipful wedding, a famous photographer, a hilarious poem about our budding relationship, the honeymoon in Hawaii. Who could ask for more?
After the honeymoon, life got rocky. God is faithful.
A story of the beginning of a heart change in my dad’s life that brought him to embrace something new and wonderful!
A brand new car, a brand new life. The transition from Love In Action after 22 years brings many surprises!
As I contemplated going to work for a Toyota Dealership I looked back over the years of my own car buying experiences. I had purchased a lot of cars in my lifetime. When I was 17 years old I was ecstatic when buying a 1970 Volkswagen Beetle.
When I entered into the business of selling cars I had the opportunity to test drive most of the models available. I developed an awareness of sensing my environment and as I drove each one.
I was trying to be honest about who I am and what I think and feel as I presented a potential car to a customer. As I did that, I really enjoyed the connection I had with them individually. I also sought to find out who they were.