Through the Windshield of My Life


This is a series of reflections on my own life that I hope will encourage you to think about yours. Many of us have things in our lives or activities that are energizing for us. Sports, hobbies, maybe places or memories that are really special to us that came from our connections to those around us as we grew up. Mine hangs on wonderful cars from my childhood that were connected to significant memories.

Stanwood ScenesA Tribute to My Dad – 1953 Olds

A story of my dad’s life and the way he responded to my promiscuous lifestyle with grace.

1959BuickwhitefrontAn Unspoken Hero in a 1959 Buick LeSabre

The story of an unsung hero in my life. A call to recognize and affirm those who have positively impacted our lives.

1959 CadillacRemembering God’s Love Through a 1959 Cadillac

God is with us when we don’t see Him. From my birth God has been faithful to me. This is part of my God story that I want to share with you.

1963corvairThree Kids and a Dad – Two Weeks  – all in a 1963 Corvair!

Many vacation memories as a child included camping trips with my dad and our friends.  Many interesting cars and camping vessels included in my history of traveling the roads with dad.

1963 F-85 Conv blueA Dream Come True and A Nightmare That I Wanted to Go Away – 1963 Oldsmobile Cutlass Convertible

Life brings with it joy and pain. In the end God weaves it all together and with Him, it can be all good.

1965Chrysler4doorSubdue The Earth – 1965 Chrysler 300

God called Adam to fill the earth and subdue it. What does that mean for us today? You may find some wonderful encouragement as you read further.

1970FordA Surprise Reconciliation Through a Ketchup Packet – 1970 Ford Galaxie 500

After many years of a painful relationship, God used a simple Ketchup Packet to heal my heart.

1966-mustang-convertibleOh, my gosh! Its in my garage! Darn, it was just a dream. – 1966 Ford Mustang Convertible

Cars began to symbolize memories of great elation, as well as memories of the painful history that was manifesting itself in my life. My teen years revealed the dysfunction I had lived in most of my life.

1969_Camarobluewithstripe1969 Camaro – Coming and Going With its Owner

As adulthood becomes a reality, so does the pain of relationship development.  Read the story of how I covered the pain I began to feel as I discovered this new reality.

cars marryTwo Cars Come Together

As I got married for the first time, there were some significant things that undermined the marriage.  Not feeling equipped to deal with them, the marriage began to suffer. Finding distractions wasn’t hard due to busyness, family responsibilities, and working a lot of hours.

1979mailbuwagonopen1979 Malibu Classic Wagon

The Beginning of the End of the Marriage – The Discovery of Homosexuality and An Adulterous Affair

67 olds blue1967 Oldsmobile Cutlass

I am Gay, and I want a Divorce.  My mind began to split and everything that I held dear no longer was important. I am going to go my way and discover my “real self.”

1975 Dodge Colt1975 Dodge Colt

Hello, God!  I’m In Trouble!

I was anxious to get into my new life and experience a new gay relationship.  That’s the way I saw it, the old is gone, the new has come and John Smid is going to redesign his life.

1971MarkIII1970 Continental Mark III

Valentines Week, 1984. When roses were being handed out, I was calling it quits with a gay partner. As I continued to fail at maintaining healthy relationships, God showed up over and over to reveal His love to me.

1982 Sentra1982 Nissan Sentra

This car symbolized a new beginning in life. Starting over with new friends, new activities, and certainly new priorities. This little white gem carried me from one life into the other with confidence. A brand new way of living gave me a fresh start and new friends. through involvement in a singles ministry and the development of a clown ministry, I discovered talents and strengths I never knew I had.

1987-Sentra1987 Nissan Sentra

Much like my 1982 Sentra, Little did I know that this car would also take into a life transition that was both miraculous, and shocking to many people around me.

1984 Audi1984 Audi 5000 Turbo

A well received gift to my fiance’ after a challenging road to our engagement.

1988 mustang conv1988 Mustang Convertible

An amazing woman, a worshipful wedding, a famous photographer, a hilarious poem about our budding relationship, the honeymoon in Hawaii. Who could ask for more?

1988 voyager1988 Plymouth Voyager Minivan

After the honeymoon, life got rocky. God is faithful.

1963 corvette1963 Chevrolet Corvette

A story of  the beginning of a heart change in my dad’s life that brought him to embrace something new and wonderful!

Sienna2007 Toyota  Sienna Minivan

A brand new car, a brand new life. The transition from Love In Action after 22 years brings many surprises!

2007 Toyota Sienna Minivan – Part Two

Buying 1970Buga Car Like Going to the Dentist

As I contemplated going to work for a Toyota Dealership I looked back over the years of my own car buying experiences. I had purchased a lot of cars in my lifetime. When I was 17 years old I was ecstatic when buying  a 1970 Volkswagen Beetle.

2010_toyota_prius_hybridFeeling It In A Car!

When I entered into the business of selling cars I had the opportunity to test drive most of the models available. I  developed an awareness of sensing my environment and as I drove each one.

2010-corolla“Oh? No, I think I prefer beige.”

I was trying to be honest about who I am and what I think and feel as I presented a potential car to a customer. As I did that, I really enjoyed the connection I had with them individually. I also sought to find out who they were.

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