Personal Prayer for John and Vileen – Sept. 10, 2008
Personal Prayer for John and Vileen
Vileen came to me today and asked me where we were going to cut our budget in preparation for the potential of our loss of income. In my own insecurity and attempt at denial I shrugged my shoulders and said, “I don’t know.”
In reality, there is a lot I don’t know about where God is leading us. I don’t know what He is going to do. I don’t know what we are going to do. I don’t know exactly how He will lead us. I don’t know how He will provide for us.
What I do know is that God is faithful. I also know that His ways are not our ways. I know that He will provide for our “needs” even though I can’t always understand what those are exactly. I know that for over 25 years I have seen God provide for us in times of abundance, times of need, times of insecurity and great financial challenge. He has never let us down.
I know that He is not an enabler and will provide according to His will even if it means that we have to change dramatically how we live. I still like to remain in denial about it all. I am not comfortable having to think of giving up anything. Do I have a show of hands to “relate”? I don’t want to feel alone in all of this.
A friend of ours asked Vileen if I had been applying for jobs. She said, “No”. Our friend was shocked at her response. Another good friend asked me how I felt about applying for jobs. My response was this. If I were working at a full time job that was unrelated to Grace Rivers I would not have the time to develop this ministry. If I were trying to work and develop GR I would not be able to give the time to my family that I feel is really important right now. I feel deeply convicted that Grace Rivers is God’s plan. I also feel deeply convicted that time with my family at this time in my grandson’s life is also extremely important. So, no, I haven’t applied for jobs.
But, I am open. I seek God each day for His will and believe whole heartedly that He is faithful and will lead me where He wants me to go. Please pray for us so that we will continue to feel His arms of leading and provision around us.
Pray for:
- Wisdom for John and Vileen
- Financial provision for our family starting in November 2008
